vitamins please!

Seriously, I need more vitamins! Reason being I’m sick again. Just when I was celebrating for the recovery of previous sickness; here I am stuck with flu and sore throat again. So lucky! Ha-ha. I wonder what the reason for my sickness is. Perhaps it is more than the external factors that result in its return. And I should turn to bed early, but due to the loads and tons of work that I need to accomplish. I guess my sickness is allowed to get worsen. ONE more day to a New Year! Wohooo!

New World

There is always a new world out there that awaits for your discovery! Went hill climbing today. Thanks men for discovering such a wonderful place, a place of peace and quite. Really enjoyed myself today, but it can be really tiring. Scenery up there truly differs from what we see daily. Everything in life just tend to slow down in pace. A sense of relaxation filled the air. Smooth and cool. Wind sweeping through the grass and clouds brushing across the sky, it has been a long time since I last saw such a view. Just want to thanks for the accompany and the sharing of such a wonderful place. Thanks men! Hope you have enjoyed yourself too.

(yummy food b4 the climbing)

(clear blue sky)

(beautiful scenery)

Dreams

Learn to accept it. Not everything in life is meant for one. I admit that every thing happen for a reason. However, the reason may not be the one that is in our mind. Perhaps some things are better off in the dreams. Not everything has to be reality. Even if it is in the dream, it can still be a fascinating one. If you can’t have it, learn to accept it, appreciate it, and let go of it. Things may be different after letting go. Appreciate the life that you are living in, place your views further, and you will be able to find happiness.

Christmas Season

Recently, I have been busy with buying, wrapping and giving off presents resulting in lack of time for updates. And such process has been lasted for a week. Ha-ha. Tiring indeed, but fun!

(a peep at the presents I have brought)

Finally met up with Dar Dar on Sunday, she is so much cuter now! And just listen to how she calls me. She sounds so cute that makes me melt. Ha-ha. But she seems to be much lighter. Must eat more!

(my dar dar. so CUTE.)

(dar dar & her bro)

As for today, I have a small Christmas Party at home. Attendances are Fuzzy, Lili, Poing and Hanting. But I don’t think it should be term as a party; instead it should be known as a Christmas TV Program marathon. Reason being most of our time is spent on watching TV programs. Especially on 魔女柔熙 where huge commotions are started about the 学长(Junhe), 戊龙(Wulong) and Johnny. Ha-ha.

(submerge by the gifts)

(fascinated by the shocking game)

(the shocking doggy game)

(an interesting gift by fuzzy with the help of poing. ha-ha.)

Just want to say, thanks to all for the presents and blessings. Thanks Thanks!

(my gifts. before and after.)

Swensen

Have lunch at north Point Swensen today, a place where I have not visited since I was six. Still remember sitting near the window and having my fries and ice-cream. Good old days. Ha-ha. Despite the whole meal causes me to be penniless, yet it is still an enjoyable one. By the way, this was my first time trying out steak! And I would say it is super duper delicious! Ok, I know I sound stupid to be fascinated by steak; after all it is my first time trying. Besides that I have Choc Fondue for dessert. OMG! It is marvelous, super duper, extremely yummy! Imagine the thick dark chocolate that moves down your throat. Wohoo! You guys should try it out too. And the staff there are really good at their services, especially the Malay female manager, thin and long hair one, who is so kind to every of her customers. And what surprise me most was that when I was making my payment, she actually takes note of my name on the card and addresses me by my name. I was like so shock! But that’s the kind of attitude that every customers are looking for. Isn’t it?

Oh. And today I have a conversation with my dar dar. And she have learned to say 你好. I was like so surprise! She’s so cute over the phone. Hope to see her soon! =)

(my delicious sirloin steak. yummy!)

(my cousin and mummy orders. lamb chop.)

(delicious Choc Fondue)

Shopping

After several days of shopping trips, I have finally completed 95% of the Christmas gifts that I am going to give out this year. Yet, there are more trips that I need to carry out. OMG. And currently I have already spent $126.50 on the gifts.

Shopping wasn’t a fun thing after all, especially when you notice the money in your wallet get lesser and lesser. And like what I have been saying, I belong to the poverty group. After spending, I think I’m now in the beggar group. Ha-ha.

But buying presents for others is really a fun thing! Thinking of the person from shop to shop, and matching the gifts to the person you are buying for. Hmmm. I just like that kind of feeling. Of course those who I buy for must represent a certain level of importance in my heart. As I won’t like to see the people who I don’t really like to keep appearing in my mind. That will really cause nightmares. Ha-ha.

But Christmas really gives you the joy and happiness. Besides the spending part I would say. As for what I had bought, I shall disclose it on Christmas day itself. Ha-ha. After buying so much presents, I wonder what I would get in return.

(Gifts that I had bought... a lot sia... haha..)

Destiny

OK, I admit that I’m stupid. Despite knowing that certain things are meant to be this way; I kept telling myself that things will be different, silly me. But the fact is some things in life have already been fixed and permanent, and that is known as your destiny. There seems to be no point struggling for changes. That’s the life that we are living in and nothing could be done, except for torturing yourself into an illusions of disbelieving the truth. Perhaps I have been too engross in my beliefs which had made me suffered, but I do hope that what I stands for is real.

mémoire

Whenever I have a fully packed schedule, time always passes by without me knowing it. Today, I have spent my day working hard in house cleaning. Doing some packing and disposing of my notes which I have accumulated through out my polytechnic life. Believe it or not, it is really a lot! Furthermore, I still have my secondary books packed together. Thus, it was really a hard chore in categorizing them and deciding which were to be disposed off. But at least I have completed one section of my stuff in the house, and there are more to go.

By the way, recently I’m engrossed in this song sang by 光良. The title is 烟火. Just feel that some parts of the lyrics are quite true. Sometimes, people just change without you knowing it. And they can change at the speed of fireworks. Perhaps that’s the cycle of life. Everything in this world is subjected to changes; maybe the only eternity object will be memory. Memories that you have of one another, the hardship and sweetness that was went through. Learn to treasure your memories.

(some of my notes that are going to thrown away)

recovering

Still in the process of recovering, thus I have spent my beloved Saturday at home with my computer and television. It is kind of boring, especially it is the beginning of a long waited holiday, and I’m stuck here in my house, what a waste. But what to do, I am sick.

However, I manage to catch some evening nap for the day, which I have not been doing it for the past decades. Felt so refresh after a wonderful sleep, and I made three consecutive dreams just within that one and a half hour of nap. Cool right? It is like watching a movie. The only difference is, I’m acting in it. Ha-ha. As for the content, I shall not mention it here, but it is really a sweet dream.

Sick

I was tortured by fever, cough and cold for this few days. I wonder if I'm lucky or not, because I have seemed to catch up with the trend of illness, where almost everyone is getting sick. But what really cheers me up from my sickness was my mummy, who purposely went out in the morning to buy porridge back for me on the first day when I was sick, so thoughtful. I know I'm kind of amplifying the action, but I really appreciate the care given. Not forgetting those who are around me, and have shown care and concern for my sickness, thanks guys.

Sadly, I have to sit for ICA and examination at such timing, and today, I even presented with my dying voices, due to my sore throat. I wonder what my results will be. Better not think about it now.

Weds

Just came back from a wedding dinner of my cousin at Lion City Hotel. Meet up with the others long time no see cousins too. Despite the food wasn't that tasty. But I can really feel the happiness they have throughout the ceremony. And I do enjoy myself. Imagine the amount of happiness that was engulf in the air molecules that you breath in during the dinner, I know I'm exaggerating, but after the dinner I really feel a sense of happiness within me. I guess that's the power of love and wedding.

But, back to my own reality, I'm stressed by all this modules that I have and of course by that someone. ICA and projects comes piling up. And yet I'm here thinking of so many irrelevant things. Better off to my work load…

Worries

Just finish watching the last episode of GONG (宫S). And I'm kind of lost now. Having some thoughts on what was mention in the show. Seems to find myself engage with thoughts and feelings again. Sometimes I do hope that I will be stupid, at least I don't have to go through so many things that others don't have to go through. Back to the show, of course like normal drama, there is always a happy ending for all characters. But in real life, things may just turn out differently.

Today my entire day was actually spent on this International Business Module, as the deadlines for the report is coming right up. Hmmm. This semester seems to be rather rush, so many things given, and yet so little time to accomplish.

Just want to say that in life, there are always some things that make you worry about. Worry about your results. Worry about your future. Worry about your love one. Worry and worries. If only, all this worries can be reduced, disappeared and never reappeared.

Right here, right now, I am worrying about…

angels

Sorrow doesn't seem to be moving away from me yet. Sadness was added on when certain things doesn't turn out right.

Feeling rather low for now, thanks god there are always angels around who will cheer you up, talk to you and listen to you. You guys know who you are, and I really thank you guys from the bottom of my heart.

However, things are just far too complicated to handle. Emotions just rush through me unknowingly. Tired and demoralize.

Have been busy with projects recently, looking around at all the stress people around me. Just want to say; hey guys work hard for it!

thankfully

Have the weather as my feelings of the day, dark and filled with sadness.

Feeling disappointed with a lot of things. The people around, the people I met and the people I know. Is it always true about you reap what you sow?

Perhaps not, contributions were carried out, but there were seems to be no returns. Is this just part of my life?

It have been a rather down day for me. Thankfully when you are down, there are always small things that can cheer you up for a while.

Thanks to my God mother who try to cheer me up, despite of my dark face. And Ms. Woot, who cheers me up by giving me a thumb drive, after seeing the one that I have initially.

When you are down, you always need one or two things to keep you alive again.

- Trying Hard to Keep a Smile -

(e thumb drive... so thoughtful... got one duck...)

Exhausted

What an exhausting day for me!

Wake up extremely early for the day to rush through my daily routine. Soon I was found suffocated by the piles and piles of homework and project. Meeting up with deadlines seems to be a part of me now. Can life be more interesting?

Recently, everyone starts to get tricky with me in figuring out who's my “someone” is. But I'm really not in the mood in mentioning it. I know you guys really care about me, but I would appreciate if all these questioning could come to an end for the time being.

Feelings are such interesting things in life that brings you close, as well as bring you far.

- Right Here Waiting -

Dine in at Pepper Lunch today, together with my new god mother and great god mother. Ha-ha. Being unable to select on beef dishes, I have ordered Chicken Pepper, and that's considered costly to me. I'm broke le lah!

(my order... yummy)

(my god mother art piece... she seems more childish than me... Ha-ha)

Enchanted

Catch ENCHANTED today with Banana.

Indeed, I'm really enchanted by the show. It is a pretty nice show after all. With the fantasy content, it may just boost you off our seats and get into their wonderland. Fascinating is what I would say.

Laughter filled the theater while the show was on, especially for the guy next to us, laugh dammn loud. Ha-ha.

Everything just seems so wonderful in their fairy tales. However, does it really happen in real life? Is there really Happily Ever After? That's something that I'm not sure.

But there's one thing that I'm sure of as of now, which is the songs they sang are really fabulous. Till now the lyrics and rhythms are still continuously running in my mind. Lala lala…

- Happily Ever After -

(hey see the one on the plate?... dat's me... wahaha...)

Wonderful feelings

Wonderful feelings for the day.

Something has finally brightened up my life after the whole week of sadness. Despite, my mind was still occupied with that “someone”, but I seem to be happier for the day itself, probably due to ...

Btw, just came home from school for the day. Finally understood waking up early and sleeping out late can be really tiring. My eyes just seem to be closing. Fortunately today is Saturday, and maybe I just slack in my bed for the whole day, if I'm able to do so.

Sweet Dreams ...

[my favourite... small treats... =) ]

Feelings and thoughts seems to get stronger

As the night get darker, feelings and thoughts seems to get stronger. I wonder why? Probably tonight is another emotional night for me again.

Feelings and thoughts strikes again. Especially after a whole day of activities that went through for the day.

Kind of tired with it, but there seems to be no choice for it.

Some one mentions something to me today, and I'm trying hard to get the meaning behind it. If only I was able to read minds. Things may be a lot easier.

Little things have enormous impact

Little things do have Enormous impacts.

A little conversation can spice up your life, at the same time downturn it. All of it just depends on your mindset. The way you handle it as well as the way you view it. How complicated can life be?

Happiness engages with sorrow for the day.

I was finally home early for the week, and my early would mean around 5.30 plus. The sky was drizzling and the air was in midst. A perfect jogging period, I would say. So I went for a jog in the drizzles. Letting the rain to brush through my body, just as I hope that the thoughts would went off too. But I was wrong, it does get stronger. How stupid I am…

Loaded Schedule

Wake up extremely early in the morning today, just to go to school early. Not really for the project sake, but doesn't really want to stay at home. Everything just went on as per normal in school, except for the badminton game that I have finally managed to play, after several weeks of planning, with jy and fuzzy.

My schedule for the day wasn't really interesting, but rather packed indeed. Reach home around 9.30pm. Tired and exhausted for a day. Despite of the tiredness, I do really hope that I could get myself engrossed in a fully loaded schedule for the rest of my life, or maybe just for these couples of weeks, so as to stop my imaginations from running wild on that someone again.

Thoughts went through from dawn till twilight, and image of that someone is still in mind.

Emotions

Weekends have arrived, but I wasn't excited at all. Emotions have invaded me for the whole day, confusing my thoughts and actions. What should I do? I have no answers. Except for letting such horrible emotions to continuously engulf me. I have no intention and wasn't able to break it free. Tired and lose of hope. Is this my life? I do thought that life could be much more appealing, perhaps I was wrong.

All these emotions simply come from a person, someone who endlessly emerges out from my brain cells. I do wonder if it is a torture or a blessing. What's wrong with me? If only all my questions could be answered, which I doubt so.

Will I be able to live in the life that appears in my dream?

Life is just far more complicated. And a simple emotion does create a lot more harm than you think.

Fascinating Movies

不能说的秘密

On thursday, I have spent my nights by watching the movie <不能说的秘密> .After the strong recommendations by zhang lei and jie yong. It is really a nice movie indeed. Kind of touching and it does set your mind into a series of thinking. Indeed, the movie was really fascinating despite certain scenes relate me to Harry Potter. Hehe. But for now, I'm in love with this movie.

Beowulf

After a week of stupid schooling, weekend has finally arrived. After class yesterday, xue jiao, zhang lei, ming de, jie yong and me headed to the lab to experience the exciting and thrill of the stocks market. And indeed, our hearts fluctuate as the stocks go, probably for jie yong & me only ba. Hehe. Dammn exciting and thrill sia.

After a hard work on the project, all of us decided to head down to AMK hub for a movie, where we were recommended by zhang lei again, to watch the <Beowulf> . Despite most of them do not really enjoy the movie, but I think that the movie is really not that bad, except for the graphics that make it kind of cartoonist. However, the content does looks interesting, whereby it states the truth self of human beings, how they are seduced by fame, glory, sex and courage.

But the truth is - any movie will be nice to me as long as I'm watching with the right person, and that's my logic of life. Hehe.

Sakae Sushi

Feeling rather sick today. I wonder why. Thanks god there is a 4hr break in between lessons that allows me to catch a nap before returning back to school for an afternoon lesson.

Probably due to the wired sickness. I have developed certain wired dreams and thinking that make my head spins for the whole day. Hope it do not continue.

Btw, yesterday meet up with bees and banana to Sakae Sushi for a fabulous buffet, followed by meeting up with Fuzzy for some exercises. Below are the pics that I promised to post up. Hehe.

(yummy yummy)

(ooo.... egg...)

(look @ how hungry is Bee)

Feelings that Never Ends

Do you ever have the feeling of missing someone so much in life that you think of that person almost every seconds?

Well. I do.

Recently, I'm overwhelmed with such feelings. I wonder what is the reason behind? Probably due to the loneliness that I have obtained from being alone at home all by myself.

Having to stay at home all by myself was what I have been wishing for in the past. However, I'm feeling a sense of regret now. How I wish the past could rewind. Everything and everyone would be the same again.

Unfortunately, times wait for no one. What happens had already happened. And there's no point of looking back.

(I am Trying HARD to be Realistic)

As Promised

Hey... As promised... I have loaded the pics...

THURSDAY:

It was LiLi 19th Birthday... And all of us head down to KFC for celebrations...

(sia la... can c lili is so HAPPY... hehe)

(everyone having fun)

On the same day after class, Banana & me went to Causeway Point... Cus Banana want to get some files... Haha... But after buying the files... We passed by the Toy stores... And guess wad we come out with... A Spiderman Walkies Talkie Set... Cool le... Hehe...

(mine spidy walkie talkie)

FRIDAY:

After class, Banana & me head down to Causeway Point again... (p.s. like everyday go there like dat... hehe) Reason being Fuzzy wans to go library... So we head down to Woodlands first to wait for her and Poing... And guess who came along too... LiLi... Surprise le... Hehe... And to our greater surprise... We found out that Poing actually read qiong yao... unbelievable rite... hehe

(Poing with her qiong yao)

A Change

Well... Actually I wanted to blogged on the past two days events... However, due to the new image set for my blog... I have wasted TWO & a HALF hours... and I'm so sleepy now... >O< ... haha... promised to uploads those interesting pics asap... till then... I go orh orh los... nitz

Calculus

Today seems to be a busy day for me... Started with a 8am morning class... Carry on to help Banana rush her report... Den went for the stupid calculus lesson... Follow by jogging... And i'm so dammn tired now... 2moro still got a stupid moring lesson @ 9am... OMG... and now I start to see stars around mine head.... I wan MORE sleepssss la....

Second Day of School

Well... Today was the 2nd day of school... Feeling better... Everything just goes on... Pack with lecs and tutts... But I manage to catch some parts of the High School Musical 2... Just b4 going to sch to assist Banana on her report... Haha... Despite it is more like a kids show... But the show was really nice... and maybe I prefer kids stuff ba... and i'm still a kid... haha...

First Day of School

First day of school has finally started... Everything seems to change a lot... the people around... the environment around... and the condition around... seems like an Aileen planet to me... Just eleven weeks and everything have changed so much...

I miss the time when I was just year one... everyone are more innocent... and every one are just so kind to one another... but now it seems to be a different case...

The first day of school wasn't a pleasant day for me at all... And I'm rather affected by it... kind of depressed... Maybe... Would it be different if I had chosen to be in JC after graduates... Would everything be better for me if I didn't choose to go to NYP...??? Thoughts are just hunting me DOWN...

Filled up with troubles and thoughts... And afraid of being alone ... I head myself to the library to get some new & inspirational books to read on... the environment was really nice... maybe it's because of school holidays... the environment seems so much quieter...

Chomp Chomp

Ystrd was mine first time goin to Chomp Chomp... 2gether wif hans, poing, lili & fongz... And i think the environment there is much better than i think... despite of the small area... it is rather clean & cooling... haha... poing and lili was doing the ordering... and they sure ordered quite a lot... and hans was doing the paying... like MUMMY brining her KIDS for dinner... haha... oh ya... and fongz treat us sugar cane juices los... despite she onli pay for half of the price... haha... and the sugar cane juice is BIG de los... after a heavy dinner... everyone decided to walk ard... and i realli mean ard & ard... haha... finally we landed ourselves in McDonalds... where i'm the onli one who ordered a cup of ice-cream... so pai se... after which... we went for the second round at another hawker centre... for satay... haha... (p.s. everyone sure can eat... except for someone...) haha... who dun even wan to eat onion... hehe... u know who u are... i shall not spell it out... wahaha

( C hw BIG e sugar cane drink is...)

(part of e foodsss we have... haha... )

(YUM SENG... on e table???)

(hey... wad u all doing to the stingray???)

(mine lonely Ice-Ca-Ream)

( C la... dun wan go order... pai se liao la... haha)

Last Day of IPP

Waaa.... Ystrd was the last day of IPP... Sian diao... Eleven weeks jus pass like that... But ystrd was a realli FUN & BUSY day for me... Cus towards the end of the day... I was running around in the office... Giving gifts... Take photos... And to complete mine last assigment... SAD SAD... haha... And I realli gonna miss IPP... Not the jobs... & of course not the part on doing report... But MISS the ppl there... Cus they are realli nice los... Cus other than giving me Chocs... They also treat me to Billy Bombers leh... haha... And I'm so happy los... Sort of the first dinner appointment that is totally for me... haha... and everyone jus got so full... cus it is American style... BIG plates los... haha... thanks guys, I have enjoyed myself... and hope u guys have enjoyed yurself too...

(touch up on GIFTS...)

(yaji, hr de, xiao zhu, xiao ya)

(me, yf, grace, ivy lim, xr)

(FORMAL farewell... everyone so formal in the pics... haha)

(FABULOUS LARGE size lunch... yum yum...)

(I'm INNOCENT... Dun K me!)

(mine BELOVED desk...)

(Choz from Gim Hoon... Nice nice...)

(I have SUPER POWERS...)

Checked It Out

hey hey... a holiday wasted... haha... i mus be crazy to be still so happy... but currently, i'm fascinated with this new song 崇拜 sang by 梁静茹... it is realli a nice song... and i know that u will say i changes so fast... cus ystrd I was still saying mine likeness about the 爱是永恒 ... haha... but wad to do... dis song is also veri nice ma... check out the video that i have posted at the side... dis song is actually attached wif the movie... seems like a nice and EMO movie... suit me sia... haha... but i dun think it is showing in Singapore... and i especially like the ear piece that 桂纶镁 was wearing... look so cooool... btw... check out mine dp on top too... haha

你的姿态 你的青睐 我存在在你的存在

你以为爱 就是被爱 你挥霍了我的崇拜

风筝有风 海豚有海 我存在在我的存在

所以明白 所以离开 所以不再为爱而爱

自己存在 在你之外